Blog 9) Orthostatic Tremor and a Walk in Faith

9) Orthostatic Tremor and a Walk in Faith.

Oh my goodness.
Are you still here. 😂
I have depleted my mind.
Therapeutical writing……no it was brain exhausting.
Blog 9 in my Orthostatic Tremor series, ENDS here.

I am old, worn out with Chronic auto immunes and now OT ;
ORTHOSTATIC TREMOR AWARENESS BLOG – in my elder state, I apologize for repeating stuff.

I believe I included in blog 5, my encouragements with a couple of book recommendations and scriptures.
I am aware that some reading this may not join in with my Faith.
But that is what I have to offer.
I invite you to read what is personal to me.
Or you may want to not read of my faith.

It’s up to you.

This is an older blog of mine.
Go read it and come back as I try to finish WELL with this OT Awareness Blog) 9
https://happytrails2u.blog/2016/06/29/my-jesus-2/

Regarding my Orthostatic Tremor, in the words of Andrew Murray from his book, “Jesus Himself”.

“Oh! my Lord Jesus, though I do not understand it, though I cannot grasp it, though my struggles avail nothing, I am not going to let Thee go. If it is possible for a sinner on earth to have Jesus every day, every hour, and every moment in resurrection power dwelling in his heart, shining within him, filling him with love and joy,—if that is possible, I want it.”

(Many of Andrew Murray’s books are on Amazon for free kindle downloads and also utube has many, many of his books to listen to audibly for free.)

The above quote set my heart towards Jacob in Genesis 32:22-30
Read, study it and meditate on it and please take it personally.

I don’t like to say favorites in the Bible, although this passage would be a mark for me for all my life as God’s child, restoring me over and over – I go back to it when I audible pray fervently, pouring out and then receiving holy restoration in my walk.

And now it is fitting with my Orthostatic Tremor journey too.

After Jacob offered up to Esau a present of peace he entered into deep fervent prayer. I can’t tell it quite like my faithful study partner,
Mathew Henry, breaks this passage down so well in his Bible commentary;

Genesis 32:24-32
A great while before day, Jacob being alone, more fully spread his fears before God in prayer. While thus employed, One in the likeness of a man wrestled with him. When the spirit helpeth our infirmities, and our earnest and vast desires can scarcely find words to utter them, and we still mean more than we can express, then prayer is indeed wrestling with God. However tried or discouraged, we shall prevail; and prevailing with Him in prayer, we shall prevail against all enemies that strive with us. Nothing requires more vigour and unceasing exertion than wrestling. It is an emblem of the true spirit of faith and prayer. Jacob kept his ground; though the struggle continued long, this did not shake his faith, nor silence his prayer. He will have a blessing, and had rather have all his bone put out of joint than go away without one. Those who would have the blessing of Christ, must resolve to take no denial. The fervent prayer is the effectual prayer. The Angel puts a lasting mark of honour upon him, by changing his name. Jacob signifies a supplanter. From henceforth he shall be celebrated, not for craft and artful management, but for true valour. Thou shalt be called Israel, a prince with God, a name greater than those of the great men of the earth. He is a prince indeed that is a prince with God; those are truly honourable that are mighty in prayer. Having power with God, he shall have power with men too; he shall prevail, and gain Esau’s favour. Jacob gives a new name to the place. He calls it Peniel, the face of God, because there he had seen the appearance of God, and obtained the favour of God. It becomes those whom God honours, to admire his grace towards them. The Angel who wrestled with Jacob was the second Person in the sacred Trinity, who was afterwards God manifest in the flesh, and who, dwelling in human nature, is called Immanuel, Hosea 12:4, Hosea 12:5. Jacob halted on his thigh. It might serve to keep him from being lifted up with the abundance of the revelations. The sun rose on Jacob: it is sun-rise with that soul, which has had communion with God.

CHANGED HIS WALK
I like this story of Jacob because I know how broken I have felt at times and I know how broken each of us feels at times. We wrestle life. In those times, I have prayed fervently with sincerely needing to feel closer to my Father/Lord and wanting clarity. An intervention prayer such as Jacob’s wrestling and pleading for a blessing, should change his walk and cause him to rely on God for the great journeys he had ahead. OT has brought me closer in need and reliance on a close personal walk. My OT prayers were surrendering to a new change in my life. And it is okay. I seek the face of God.

Genesis 32:31 NLT
[31] The sun was rising as Jacob left Peniel, and he was limping because of the injury to his hip.